Loathing

I watched you
Lord, I hate that I did
What did you turn me into
I watched you
I thought of you.
Endlessly,
Hopefully,
I'll forget you
That's it how it works, sadly.

I watched you.
I waited for you,
I stalked you
Nothing was the same
Nothing ever is.

You changed
Became a new you.
Someone else.
I watched
I loathed it
I was right
I couldn't hold tight

Oh, I hated it.
How you changed.
You started
Sitting in different places,
Doing different things
A new you.
Perhaps,
It was easier that way
For that day
Then another
Then another
And my heart broke
Constantly,
Because you were getting rid of me
What did I do
How bad did I treat you?
You changed
You were washing
Every bit of me
From your clothes,
Even those changed.
Your style
Your food.
Everything.
And I painfully watched it all

As I did,
I also was getting rid of you
Well, the old you.
This new you,
That did
All things I hated
I don't want it.

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Gloria Nyagaka is Kenyan and just completed her Master’s degree in Energy and Environmental Engineering.

She has been a writer for six years now. Her manuscript is the biggest project she’s ever done, a modern romantic thriller, is in the hands of her literary agent. It is a book that expresses great female characters and the strength of a woman at large. She mostly campaigns against women's violence and for freedom for women to choose. She also focuses on how great women have changed the world, Michelle Obama, Serena Williams, Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie and others. She is a swimmer, a swim coach, a Taekwondoka, a hockey player, and a dancer.