Beautiful Nightmare

In the dark night
That dream,
I don't remember it
Fully, just
Bit by bit
Passion.
Desire.
Passion,
And desire.
Dark thought
That's the worst part
That clinging thought

Clinging to me like a glove
Perhaps, love
Perhaps, lust.
I can't tell.
It's suffocating
That dream.
It's infuriating
That you're not
Here, nor there.
Anywhere.
You're...
Gone.

I say to myself,
Maybe someday.
I hope, I dream.
Your smell,
That beautiful smell,
I hope, I dream.
This dream,
Clinging to me, like a nightmare
Of some sort.
Like a cloth.
It sticks,
It stays.

But it feels like home.

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Gloria Nyagaka is Kenyan and just completed her Master’s degree in Energy and Environmental Engineering.

She has been a writer for six years now. Her manuscript is the biggest project she’s ever done, a modern romantic thriller, is in the hands of her literary agent. It is a book that expresses great female characters and the strength of a woman at large. She mostly campaigns against women's violence and for freedom for women to choose. She also focuses on how great women have changed the world, Michelle Obama, Serena Williams, Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie and others. She is a swimmer, a swim coach, a Taekwondoka, a hockey player, and a dancer.